I should start to learn

But I can't get no! Tadada! Motivation! Tadada!

Yes, I know. I'm just ordinary student and I'm lazy as lying old shit. But there are some other reasons. As I've wrtitten in previous post, I start to study psychology to help myself. Few weeks ago I've understood that it is impossible to be the patient and the therapist in the same time. So I don't need my studies anymore. How can I force myself to learn in these circumstances?

Why do I study psychology?

I study psychology. I have never dreamt to be some kind of therapist. I will be honest with you. I have problems with myself. I always was an outsider. I have had problems with an alcohol and drugs because of being not accepted by my peers. I had, and I still have really low self-esteem and depression. So, it is easy to guess that I study psychology to help myself. After two years I have discovered that it doesn't work that way. I need to speak about my problems with other people because I can't be the patient and the therapist at the same time.

I don't know what to do with my life. I have no purpose, I have no passion, I have no dreams.

First note

Hi, my real name is Patrick, but here I will write as Jimi Leone. This is my nickname on the internet. Jimi is from Jimi Hendrix because I love so much his music. Leone because I have tattoo with a lion on my chest (exactly this from my heading) and in italian "Leone" means the lion. So, here I am - Jimi Leone.

Origin of this blog is improving my english. I have thought about how to reach a good level with writing and also with speaking, so I have discovered that the best way is to practice it a lot. Sitting and learning a grammar is not that efficient as using language in everyday life. I know that my grammar is not good enough, but my speaking and writing are not good at all.

I understand what someone is talking. I can understand movies without translation. The problem is that when I have to speak with someone in english, I can't. I just can't find the words.

I hope that conducting this blog will help me with my english. If someone is reading this - please give me some feedback if you find some mistakes. I will be grateful.

To the next time, bye!